You guys are really lovely, but seriously I aint no saint. AJ you should see me in the mornings when I have to go to work, I'm running late and my daughter is taking an hour to eat a piece of toast

The real saints have to cover their ears!
I'm seriously blown away by all your sentiments. Thank you.
I must say again though, that I am extremely lucky to attract the wonderful people that post to ESMB. No matter how much planning and thought goes into a project like this, you are still rolling the dice when it comes to who will arrive.
The thing that occurs to me is that we are mostly ex scientologists (duh) or individuals who care about people with a cult or similarly abusive history. The thing that stuck me in Scientology for so long was the people. Except for the madness at the top (and even those individuals when away from the same madness) were just all fantastic caring people. We had to be. We gave up years of our lives without pay and personal liberty to try to help others. Not everyone does that.
Well we
are those people. We are still the same healers, seekers and carers who joined Scientology. That's why ESMB is good. Really, that's the reason.
I agree, one of the reasons, well actually it was probably the main reason I stayed as long as I did in the cult was the people, it takes a certain type of person for sure to give up everything and join a group in order to help mankind. You are right Emma, we are the givers, the healers, the carers.
I think I may have mentioned this before but I have to say it again here as it seems appropriate, but I had a dream the first week I was posting here, it was so real and so vivid it was like watching a movie in real life.
I was standing looking down a sort of tunnel, and I could see all the posters on ESMB as small pixels, or brightly coloured beads. No two colours were the same, and it looked exactly the same as a kalidascope.
At first, I could see that there were some black beads, and other colours, all huddled together, but then there were more and more beads coming and moving around inside out and upside down and mixing and mingeling together, spreading out further and further.
The smaller groups at the start of the dream were imploding and exploding, and with that, they were scattered all around and mixed up with all the other colours/beads. The picture became bigger and brighter and then it was no longer a tunnel, but the kalidascope kept doing it's thing, moving and evolving, and the beads began to move faster and faster and the colours became brighter and brighter and there were no more stuck beads or pixels.
This went on for some time, but at the end, all the pixel beads became such brightly coloured, and moved so fast and became so luminous, that all the beads just merged into each other whereas at the beginning, they seemed to collide a little, they all got brighter and brighter.. and they all became one.
A giant kalidascope, doing it's thing, almost as if it was doing it's thing anyway, with or without our consent, and we are the brightly coloured luminous beads within, eventually just going with the flow and allowing evolutions to be.
I'll never forget that, it was like this board and all the people in it evolved to such a state that without actually doing anything, but just being, at some point, this energy spread outside the kalidascope, where it went after that I don't know, but it was the most vivid dream I have ever had in my life, and it was very very beautiful.
So once again Emma, what you have done here is beyond words, you are changing people's lives every single day by what you are doing, and even when things get heavy as they sometimes and naturally do, it's all worthwhile, and I cannot thank you enough.

When I say that this board saved my sanity and my life, I mean it literally, at this moment in my life, I do not know where I would be without it, and I am extremely grateful, thank you again.
