T.I. no wonder you breezed through life in the CofS unscathed!
Well done for surviving your upbringing!
Thanks LH!
Simple problem solving skills really.
As soon as the sun would come up I would follow the sun beams coming in the windows and sit in them as the sun wound around. I focused on pulling in as much heat as I could. I only thought about the warmth. As the sun went down I would be fed and hear her walking back down the stairs. At that time I knew she would not come back up until the next day. Then I would crawl under the mattress and stay there until the sun came up the next day. But when you are that age and have to spend a solid month working to stay alive it becomes a skill that sticks with you. When you are that age and survive an entire household of grown ups trying to put you down it builds a lot of confidence.
I was in the Sea Org about three months when some guy all full of stripes and authority walked up to me and started yelling in my face. After about ten seconds I slapped him so hard he spun. That was the last time anyone yelled at me in the Sea Org.
I did get a few KR's written on me, maybe two. But the people who wrote them put them in the comm system right before they were stepping into a van to go to some other location.
Sometimes I suspect I was never comm eved or declared because I would have definately waited outside of a building for the people who wrote it or signed it to confront them if it had been full of false data.
It really amazes me how people complain about abuse in the Sea Org. And I saw a lot of it happen. Mental abuse like humiliation, demotion, loss of rights etc. But have you ever noticed how non violent the staff are? Only myself and one other person I knew ever struck someone in the Sea Org. Sure, I heard DM did. But nobody is really kicking anybodies ass over there. The other person I knew got kicked out and ordered to get through ot3 before she could get back in.
All in all, they are a bunch of whimpy white people.
During the years I spent in that coal mining town, five altogether, I only had shoes when there was snow on the ground. Otherwise I went barefoot. No one wanted to spend money on me unless it was absolutely neccessary. In the summertime from running through the woods or whatever, I developed huge bleeding cracks under toes. Nobody paid attention to it and I didn't much either. Later, when I ended up in Berkely California at eight, I saw all of these "hippies" going barefoot. I couldn't believe people would volunteer to walk around with no shoes on given other choices.
In the Sea Org, I couldn't believe people would allow some security officer to lead them off to the RPF when they were there working for basically free. I got threatened to be sent to the RPF once. I told that senior the RPF looked good to me because at least I would get some study time. That was the last time anyone threatened to send me to the RPF.
I certainly didn't set myself up to be financially dependent on the Sea Org. When I cashed out to go in I went to Florida and for 5000.00 down on each bought some houses, turned them over to a property management company to rent out for me. They collected rent, paid the mortgage, and deposited the rest into my bank account. No way was I going to put someone in the position to make me homeless or tell me I couldn't get my teeth cleaned or buy whatever I needed.
You don't see anyone who ever really had to suffer and climb buying into that. You don't see any blacks at all in the Sea Org. They would see it as being pimped out. And in reality, what is DM but a pimp?
All in all, you see a lot of delicate whites there on a motivator flow. You don't see people who have already suffered enough and won't have it anymore.
DM does not even put himself in a position to let anyone there be at cause over him. His finances. His 2d. His mest. His money. Hubbard didn't either.
We all want to make a better world but when someone tells you you have to suffer for that .............................. I don't buy into that. "The group is all and the individual is nothing" is abberrated. Hubbard said it was.
The group over there is very low toned and keyed in. It is down to "must be contributed to" and "sadism".
They are a lot of delicate people throwing golden rod at each other and crying about it. Crying because they had to do some mest work too which is considered the same as an execution. Crying because they were kicked out. Complaining because someone didn't give them applause to leave or stay.
If Scientology survives at all it will be because of the Russians.
DM himself won't walk around now without six or seven body guards to kick somebodies ass for him if he gets threatened.
Yet, you know, they see themselves as dangerous because they have the gold paper. They have the "justice".
Most of them sit at desks all day long and think they have worked their butts off.
It's actually funny.
When someone does mistake me for someone on a motivator flow I just sort that out real quick.