Moving on

[Dulloldfart]

The funny thing is, when I got declared, right at that moment when I found out I was getting declared (I was still on the base for at least a month after that) and offloaded, I remember being very, very happy about it.

I knew that no-one would ever bother me again. Ever. Unless I decided to change. Yeah right. Not gonna happen.

And that is exactly what has occured. Nobody bothers me at all.

I am finally, and fully free.

Exactly. That is the one good thing about Disconnection:

You are (usually) completely disconnected from the organization's comm lines.
(Unless you happen to be on a mailing list or ten.)

I love it.

Paul

 

[Zinjifar]

Exactly. That is the one good thing about Disconnection:

You are (usually) completely disconnected from the organization's comm lines.
(Unless you happen to be on a mailing list or ten.)

I love it.

Paul

About 'Disconnection'? No. Being declared; yes, but, disconnection is an ongoing assault, and, it doesn't include the 'Church', which has as its goal the complete 'ruin' of its targets, even when it's 'only' Disconnection being used against them. And, while the 'Church' isn't in the position to 'go after' all its 'enemies' (and, that includes everyone who's been 'declared', as well as others) it's certainly willing to expend extraordinary effort to destroy a select minority.

Zinj

 

[duddins]

The funny thing is, when I got declared, right at that moment when I found out I was getting declared (I was still on the base for at least a month after that) and offloaded, I remember being very, very happy about it.

I knew that no-one would ever bother me again. Ever.

I can dance in the rain...

When I blew, I disconnected. I had alot of baggage that I had to offload first. It took time for me.
But I remember eventually that feeling of joy at being free.
And noone bothered me either! I was left alone to build a life. So cool Bea....
I hope everything goes well with your family.

 

[Alanzo]

Duddins wrote:

I was left alone to build a life.

That's it.

That's exactly it.

And then, once the life is built and humming along, no one is going to come along and threaten it, or take it from you, either.

That's the other good thing about being free of them.

 

[duddins]

About 'Disconnection'? No. Being declared; yes, but, disconnection is an ongoing assault, and, it doesn't include the 'Church', which has as its goal the complete 'ruin' of its targets, even when it's 'only' Disconnection being used against them. And, while the 'Church' isn't in the position to 'go after' all its 'enemies' (and, that includes everyone who's been 'declared', as well as others) it's certainly willing to expend extraordinary effort to destroy a select minority.

Zinj

Aye...there's the rub. When we decide to reconnect...we take the risk of becoming one of the select few.

eh f#ck em!

 

[duddins]

Duddins wrote:



That's it.

That's exactly it.

And then, once the life is built and humming along, no one is going to come along and threaten it, or take it from you, either.

That's the other good thing about being free of them.

AMEN!

 

[Bea Kiddo]

AMEN!

YEAH!!!!

I got alot back and it ain't going anywhere.... I love that.

 

[duddins]

YEAH!!!!

I got alot back and it ain't going anywhere.... I love that.

Bravicimo! I throw flowers in your general direction

 

[Sir Facer]

God understand this one

[B]

This forum is an interesting one...."What are your strategies for starting over and leaving the C of S in your past?"

Starting over:
1st off, I would not have been able to start over had it not been for a caring soul who understood what I was going through and unconditionally reached out to me and helped me.

I was at one time the CO of the FOLO over Latin America at Mexico City. I was there for several years and had made Mexico my home. I was considered a successful CO. I had become engaged to be married to a man who was a month or two away from a final divorce. We had waited for a year and a half. Mexico is not as free with divorces as one may think.
I wanted to help the people of Mexico, but I was keenly aware of the differences in economy of Mexico to the US. So much poverty..... I started to originate telexes....trying to increase awareness about the economic situation there....It was considered CI I suppose.
FAST FORWARD.....pulled to the US, Comm Ev: Accused of High crimes, etc. Comm Ev clears me of all but minor omissions in mgmt but I am told that I could not go back to Mexico.
I blew.

No feeling. Lost. No thoughts of my own. Just judgements....I was making on myself....trying to replay and figure out what had happened. I knew I did not want to go back to the SO. I knew that I had been unjustly stonewalled. I knew that I was not an SP. I knew I did not want to be in the US.

I saved up money and took a train to Mexico. I rented a hotel room. I made attempts to contact my fiance. He had been cut off from me. Told I was never coming back. Everyone I loved and knew and concidered my friend now saw me as Bad. A bad person, an SP. I had never, and have never since felt so incredibly alone.[/B]

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Great posting and straight to the point, You are obviously amazing as they did post you as the CO so youve got something, even better you did not get crushed and turn into a robot even if it meant to lose the one you love and had to leave behind (sorry to hear that) You knew something was wrong and didn't stay to keep having pins stuck into you any more, WELL DONE

 

[duddins]

Great posting and straight to the point, You are obviously amazing as they did post you as the CO so youve got something, even better you did not get crushed and turn into a robot even if it meant to lose the one you love and had to leave behind (sorry to hear that) You knew something was wrong and didn't stay to keep having pins stuck into you any more, WELL DONE

Thank you very much Sir Facer. I did have something going on and the Continent was doing well when I was there. We were a good team and took the Birthday game as number one Continent that year. Unfortunately months later DM sent down a destruction team to rip the orgs apart.

It has been a year since I first came to ESMB and wrote those words. Many friends here on ESMB have helped me to heal from those old wounds.

It was a difficult time to live through, because I had been so incredibly brainwashed. But you are right, I refused to play the game and eat what was being dished out.

Mexico had changed me. I became immersed in the culture and language and just did not think like an INT Missionaire anymore.

I am ever grateful to my friend Maria Elena Aquilar who took me in and gave me a healing place to live in Mexico after I blew.

I had to go into hiding when the PIs threatened my life, and I never had a chance to let her know how she saved me from ever getting caught in the web of Scientology again.

Thanks Sir Facer for the wonderful acknowledgement.