Lakey,
I have two older brothers. The oldest around your age and the other one was a couple of years younger.
Around 20 years ago my oldest brother went through a divorce…he was just under 18 and she was just under 17 when they got married. They didn’t “have to get married”…it was a different time (‘58) and a different place (deep ‘Country’). He was, and still is, one helluva a horseman and cowboy.
They had two children, first a boy and then a girl. The boy graduated high school with a full scholarship for the Rodeo Team at a major Ag University. Two weeks after my nephew graduated high school he died, saving the life of his best friend.
The death of this fine, fine young man tore my brother’s soul apart and, over a period of years, became a fulcrum in his marriage. He threw himself into even harder into building his horse and cattle operation and worked long and physically hard hours that would make an SO Member feel “out ethics”.
Then the IRS came and it turns out my brother’s wife, the bookkeeper for the business, had been “fudging things” for years and, overnight to him, he was in trouble.
As things unfolded, they separated and, in my brother’s mind, somehow they’d get through this but he had to take care of the cattle and what he had slaved for all his life and he couldn’t do that when he had to come in from the pastures every night with his wife telling him how everything was his fault. His determination in the face of profound disappointment and sadness is one of the most magnificent displays of courage, honor and drive I have ever seen.
My second oldest brother lived “in the City”. He, and his wife, had Masters Degrees and were, in “City Terms” affluent. He was very close to my oldest brother, whom had “watched out for” and sought to defend him, in a physically abusive household during childhood. But my second oldest brother’s wife was very “position and appearances” conscious and looked “down” upon my agrarian oldest brother and over the years, though they lived a few hundred miles apart, the two brothers saw less and less of each other.
Shortly after my oldest brother and his wife separated my second oldest brother’s wife contacted my oldest brother’s wife and began a vitriolic and calculated “friendship” to advise just how to go about “deal” with my oldest brother. The results were quick, irreversible and very deadly. The ensuing divorce was very acrimonious and my oldest brother’s wife with the help, support and advice of our brother’s wife, succeeded in nearly destroying this fine and noble man. Between my two sisters-in-law and the IRS the fruits of 30 years of blood, sweat and tears evaporated in one year and he was near bankruptcy.
My oldest brother never asked me for any help and the only help I offered that he would accept was love and someone to talk to now and then. I took it upon myself to call our brother and ask him just what in the hell was he doing. His response was that he was “trapped” and “not taking sides”. My response to that was that this isn’t a sides taking issue, our oldest brother is our brother and he isn’t looking for “sides” to be taken but your wife sure has taken sides and she’s helping someone to hurt your brother. My second oldest brother is the one that is now deceased. He was a fine and beautiful man but I will never understand why he responded as he did to what I had just said.
After a long pause, he said, “Well, you don’t know the whole story.” To which I replied, “I don’t? No, my brother, you don’t know the whole story. The WHOLE story is this; there’s gonna be a divorce, your wife is helping to ensure your brother is gonna lose his horses, his cattle, his ranch and may well go bankrupt and you know what? The one thing that will still be unchanged when this is all over is that he is still your brother.” He thanked me for my opinion and hung up. We did not speak again for several years.
Over the next fifteen years or so, due in large measure to the efforts and “good offices” of my sister, we brothers spent some time together and got along just fine in short get togethers but there was always the dark cloud of the “issue” pervading our time together. The “issue” was left untouched until the final days of my brother number two’s life.
When the call came from my sister, telling my oldest brother that our brother was in the hospital and not expected to live more than a week or two, he dropped everything (he had rebuilt his life and has a first class little horse operation) and drove hundreds of miles into the hospital. For the next 10 days he barely left my brothers side…he slept in a big chair in my brothers hospital room every night so that his brother would not be alone. The sister-in-law that had caused him so much pain and sorrow was a basket case, heavily sedated and my brother took the lead.
Over the days, the years fell away and they were once again “thick as thieves” like they’d been when kids. A couple of days before my brother passed on, during the night when it was only the two of them in the room, he told my brother he was sorry for had happened re: the “issue”. My oldest brother, being the rascal that he is, said that that was OK, it was his actually fault as to what happened and not his brother’s…he just hadn’t “whupped” him enough when they were growing up.
I hope that you and Reuben will mend your fences some day. You’re a fine feller and I’m sure Rueben is, too. Time is fleeting, life is short but bonds of brothers run deep and are unique.
Face