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Patron with Honors
so did she bite? well i suppose the answer is yes and no. basically she wanted to do something that she thought would please me and help to keep me around. also, like the rest of us i guess to some degree, it was good to be complimented! she didn't know anything about scientology really so she had no reason to think anything was f'ed up! she was ideal for them! there was a flap of some sort going on as the then tres sec had signed an SO contract and was told she had to replace herself before she could start. my girlfriend seemed like a good candidate! a job was found for her at Grays of Westminster (scn owned camera shop in ldn) that could be worked around her post. no matter that we were living miles away from the org! or that she had a 7 year old daughter! obviously no problem! i mean, I could take care of the daughter right!!! 
. the next couple of years were what made me leave. the whole thing was just insane! she was put on post in hardly any time at all and seriously quickied through staff statuses in order for that to happen. wild and wierd, my girlfriend being supervised by my wife! (divorce had not been sorted out by that point!). she didn't last long on staff. it was just nuts. she had to go down to st hill and train in the clo. the gradient was bonkers! how could they seriously expect it work out! muppets! anyway, being that she actually is a productive person, she managed to keep her job at grays. now, grays is /was owned by gray levett - clear, and nick wynn - mid ot7 at the time. also working there was another ot called uri zakai(?) and his wife, zoe. she was the c/s at cc ldn. i cant really go into mega detail about everything that happened because i wasn't there. everything that i heard was second hand info from my partner. i will tell some in relation to how it effected me, my partner, my relationship and my feelings towards the cos.
she got on well there and it seemed she was well liked. i, on the other hand, still was not percieved in a great way by the org and those connected to it. firstly, she was working with the c/s who would know whatever there was to know about me. secondly, she was working with uri, who had been the auditor for my previous marriage councilling with louise (hows that for dumb fucking luck!) and thirdly, nick wynne was one of her bosses and i new that louise had stayed with the wynnes for a while. so my partner, who i'm sure is obvious by now was "Quickied" who posted some of her story here some days ago,was in a prime position to have not not very favourable opinions of me thrown at her all the time. maybe not directly or openly but in a more subtle way. now it goes without saying that i cannot directly prove that was the case.
around that time i managed to secure some credit with the bank. yippee! now i could start to take some real services! i bought my ias membership. first lifetime then within weeks became a sponser aswell. i bought lectures. courses. and i origonated being clear!!!
. i was told to buy the ccrd (clear certainty rundown) and some intensives of auditing for set ups ( sec check lol!). i started the sec check and i thought that everything was going ok. until that is i discovered that Quickied was having something going on with a scientologist guy who was the computer technician for grays. he worked for an outside company called amazing internet and whenever something went wrong with the system she would have to call him to get it sorted. i dont know exactly what was going on. i found innapropriate emails on our computer at home that they had been sending each other. wtf!!! they flirted with each other whenever he came to the shop to work on the system. NOBODY in that place seemed to think i might not like that . nobody in that place attempted to put thier ethics in! uri and zoe BOTH knew what had gone on with louise and STILL didn't do anything about the situation going on right under thier noses. now, the way i read this is either i'm a scumbag so therefor i dont really matter or they were blind and stupid. i think it was a bit of both. i have been told that nothing physical ever happened between them and that it was only ever just "banter!". whatever. as if that makes me feel rosy about it! then comes the time that she has to go away for the weekend to birmingham for some exhibition for work. there would be her, uri, a guy called steve willis and i dont know who else. i wasn't to thrilled about it but it was her job so whatever. i have since found out that something went on while she was away. steve willis tells me that she came on to him in the hotel and offered him sex. she says this didn't happen. i'll never know for sure. they both admit to there having been a fair amount of flirting going on during the days that they were there. uri was awre of this. he could see it. steve tells me that he TOLD uri that she had made him the offer. so what do you this OT super ethical auditor did about it? fuck all. no ethics handling, no comm to her to tell her to knock it off. no comm with me to tell me what was going on. that was eight years or so ago. i found out last year!. that is NOT RIGHT!! i still dont understand how this was justified. i just dont get it. ok, moving on.
so i am getting my auditing. i seem to be a little more popular in the org (amazing what a little cash can achieve). i'm getting wins. i feel like its all good. some way into the auditing i originate that i think i might actually be OT!!! (
) great! all is good. i am KEEEEEEEYED OUT! then i run out of hours. now i felt great, and i felt very clean and certain about being ot. fn all the way. so what was the next c/s..... buy more intensives! :confused2: wtf? why? why couldn't i get down to st hill and start my ccrd? if iwas then i was. if not, then whatever! deal with it then! it absolutely :confused2: STUNK of just trying to raise gi for the org. i was seriously not happy with the cs that i had and said so! buy more! more more more! that was al;l i was told! yeah right! i had already extended my loan and maxed my brand new credit card. how the hell was i supposed to get MORE! 
. so the next thing i know, i'm off lines all over again! scumbag blah blah blah. blown from a sec check etc etc. it was the first real doubts that i had about the cos. this was where it started for me i think. add to that what was going on with quickied and the things she was telling me were going on at grays and i was seriously starting to doubt!
she had ben promised the earth at grays. this time next year you;ll be earning blah blah blah! and we both believed it! why wouldn't we? this was an upstat shop run by an ot and a clear!!!! AND she was told that by mr bob keenan!!! anyone know him? COCK! (sorry about that, just my opinion! lol) he seemed to be around the shop quite a lot. i believe at the time he was ppro(is that correct?), obviously SO. its no mystery why he was always around. gray levett apparently has great comm lines, royal family and stuff, so was always sucked up to. also they gave bob keenan money. lots of money. there was something going on to do with a group called The League of Gentlemen. i dont know much about this only that it was made up upstat scientologists who basically gave money. that was it. when q'ed told me about this it just didn't sit right with me at all. it seemed to me that this was a "group within a group". one more bloody thing that us mere mortals weren't allowed to know about. it seemed wrong. then someone got the bright idea of employing a journalist to help with pr!!! wtf? i was always told that they were evil! what was going on? could this be one rule for one and a completely different set of rules for the rest of us? well thats what it looked like to me! then out of the blue quickied is suddenly made redundent!!! just like that! nothing wrong with her work, she just had to go! fuck!!! we never did get it properly explained why. she had borrowed money on the strength of the promises that were made to her. we had bought things for the house. we had been on holiday. now she was out of work! this did it for me. i was out of there at that point. i just got the idea that there were corrupt and incompetant people in positions of power (quite perceptive as it turns out i guess! lol) and that it was pointless trying to do anything more in cos. so that was that.i was out. she wasn't working with scientologists anymore.free!!! yeah right! lol, cause it works that way doesn't it! lol. there's not much more to go from here. but i'm gonna stop now for tonight. the bits i've left out (things with quickied that are still somewhat raw) are swimming in my head at the mo and i'm starting to not think straight! break time!
. the next couple of years were what made me leave. the whole thing was just insane! she was put on post in hardly any time at all and seriously quickied through staff statuses in order for that to happen. wild and wierd, my girlfriend being supervised by my wife! (divorce had not been sorted out by that point!). she didn't last long on staff. it was just nuts. she had to go down to st hill and train in the clo. the gradient was bonkers! how could they seriously expect it work out! muppets! anyway, being that she actually is a productive person, she managed to keep her job at grays. now, grays is /was owned by gray levett - clear, and nick wynn - mid ot7 at the time. also working there was another ot called uri zakai(?) and his wife, zoe. she was the c/s at cc ldn. i cant really go into mega detail about everything that happened because i wasn't there. everything that i heard was second hand info from my partner. i will tell some in relation to how it effected me, my partner, my relationship and my feelings towards the cos.she got on well there and it seemed she was well liked. i, on the other hand, still was not percieved in a great way by the org and those connected to it. firstly, she was working with the c/s who would know whatever there was to know about me. secondly, she was working with uri, who had been the auditor for my previous marriage councilling with louise (hows that for dumb fucking luck!) and thirdly, nick wynne was one of her bosses and i new that louise had stayed with the wynnes for a while. so my partner, who i'm sure is obvious by now was "Quickied" who posted some of her story here some days ago,was in a prime position to have not not very favourable opinions of me thrown at her all the time. maybe not directly or openly but in a more subtle way. now it goes without saying that i cannot directly prove that was the case.
around that time i managed to secure some credit with the bank. yippee! now i could start to take some real services! i bought my ias membership. first lifetime then within weeks became a sponser aswell. i bought lectures. courses. and i origonated being clear!!!
. i was told to buy the ccrd (clear certainty rundown) and some intensives of auditing for set ups ( sec check lol!). i started the sec check and i thought that everything was going ok. until that is i discovered that Quickied was having something going on with a scientologist guy who was the computer technician for grays. he worked for an outside company called amazing internet and whenever something went wrong with the system she would have to call him to get it sorted. i dont know exactly what was going on. i found innapropriate emails on our computer at home that they had been sending each other. wtf!!! they flirted with each other whenever he came to the shop to work on the system. NOBODY in that place seemed to think i might not like that . nobody in that place attempted to put thier ethics in! uri and zoe BOTH knew what had gone on with louise and STILL didn't do anything about the situation going on right under thier noses. now, the way i read this is either i'm a scumbag so therefor i dont really matter or they were blind and stupid. i think it was a bit of both. i have been told that nothing physical ever happened between them and that it was only ever just "banter!". whatever. as if that makes me feel rosy about it! then comes the time that she has to go away for the weekend to birmingham for some exhibition for work. there would be her, uri, a guy called steve willis and i dont know who else. i wasn't to thrilled about it but it was her job so whatever. i have since found out that something went on while she was away. steve willis tells me that she came on to him in the hotel and offered him sex. she says this didn't happen. i'll never know for sure. they both admit to there having been a fair amount of flirting going on during the days that they were there. uri was awre of this. he could see it. steve tells me that he TOLD uri that she had made him the offer. so what do you this OT super ethical auditor did about it? fuck all. no ethics handling, no comm to her to tell her to knock it off. no comm with me to tell me what was going on. that was eight years or so ago. i found out last year!. that is NOT RIGHT!! i still dont understand how this was justified. i just dont get it. ok, moving on.so i am getting my auditing. i seem to be a little more popular in the org (amazing what a little cash can achieve). i'm getting wins. i feel like its all good. some way into the auditing i originate that i think i might actually be OT!!! (
) great! all is good. i am KEEEEEEEYED OUT! then i run out of hours. now i felt great, and i felt very clean and certain about being ot. fn all the way. so what was the next c/s..... buy more intensives! :confused2: wtf? why? why couldn't i get down to st hill and start my ccrd? if iwas then i was. if not, then whatever! deal with it then! it absolutely :confused2: STUNK of just trying to raise gi for the org. i was seriously not happy with the cs that i had and said so! buy more! more more more! that was al;l i was told! yeah right! i had already extended my loan and maxed my brand new credit card. how the hell was i supposed to get MORE! . so the next thing i know, i'm off lines all over again! scumbag blah blah blah. blown from a sec check etc etc. it was the first real doubts that i had about the cos. this was where it started for me i think. add to that what was going on with quickied and the things she was telling me were going on at grays and i was seriously starting to doubt!she had ben promised the earth at grays. this time next year you;ll be earning blah blah blah! and we both believed it! why wouldn't we? this was an upstat shop run by an ot and a clear!!!! AND she was told that by mr bob keenan!!! anyone know him? COCK! (sorry about that, just my opinion! lol) he seemed to be around the shop quite a lot. i believe at the time he was ppro(is that correct?), obviously SO. its no mystery why he was always around. gray levett apparently has great comm lines, royal family and stuff, so was always sucked up to. also they gave bob keenan money. lots of money. there was something going on to do with a group called The League of Gentlemen. i dont know much about this only that it was made up upstat scientologists who basically gave money. that was it. when q'ed told me about this it just didn't sit right with me at all. it seemed to me that this was a "group within a group". one more bloody thing that us mere mortals weren't allowed to know about. it seemed wrong. then someone got the bright idea of employing a journalist to help with pr!!! wtf? i was always told that they were evil! what was going on? could this be one rule for one and a completely different set of rules for the rest of us? well thats what it looked like to me! then out of the blue quickied is suddenly made redundent!!! just like that! nothing wrong with her work, she just had to go! fuck!!! we never did get it properly explained why. she had borrowed money on the strength of the promises that were made to her. we had bought things for the house. we had been on holiday. now she was out of work! this did it for me. i was out of there at that point. i just got the idea that there were corrupt and incompetant people in positions of power (quite perceptive as it turns out i guess! lol) and that it was pointless trying to do anything more in cos. so that was that.i was out. she wasn't working with scientologists anymore.free!!! yeah right! lol, cause it works that way doesn't it! lol.
there's not much more to go from here. but i'm gonna stop now for tonight. the bits i've left out (things with quickied that are still somewhat raw) are swimming in my head at the mo and i'm starting to not think straight! break time!
lol. maybe once i've finished rehabilitating myself fully, (for free! and no o/w's! yay!), maybe i'll write something and put it up somewhere for a giggle!