Re: The old days - Aboard the Apollo - 1973
I too lack absolute certainty. But that lack is good. And seems to allow me to have more certainty than before...because when I am less sure I can learn. Looking forward to hearing more of this discussion.
I agree that lacking absolute certainty can be a good thing and for the same reason which you stated. If someone could get an iron clad confirmation of a past life or some other spiritual occurance, I believe that would also be good. Let's say that I was able to check Czech records from 1938 and found an article in a Czech newspaper that some 13 year old boy, his older sister, his Mom and His Dad were shot at a road side stop by German Infantrymen because the Czech Dad refused to present the family's papers to the lead German official and when he finally did present them he insulted Hitler by mocking his mustache and his mannerisms.
If such an article was ever written and I found it, that would give me full unconditional certainty that we do come back life after life. That knowledge would change my life in a big way. I believe that would be a very good thing to happen to almost anyone. If Terril believes that he has certainties of that magnitude or greater, that is really awesome!
BTW, the closest I have come was running the subject of Mozart in my XDN auditing in 1973 at CCLA. I ran that at age 13, I was sent by my parents to live at the Mozart house in Salzburg, Austria and study composition with Leopold Mozart, Wolfgang's Dad. I also told me auditor that Mozart was 19 and had just come home from a tour in Italy.
About 2 weeks later, I had a dream where I was floating near a ceiling in an 18th century large saloon full of about 40 -50 people all dressed in 18th century garb. Suddenly, someone came into the room and called out the name "Gerl", he said, "Herr Gerl, which one of you is Herr Gerl? The body right beneath where I was floating, answered, "I'm Herr Gerl, I'm right over here." Suddenly I woke up. I had only one Mozart book at that time and I looked up Gerl and he was mentioned as a bass singer who sang the role of Sarastro on opening night,
Nothing much happened for 25 years, then in 1998, my daughter asked me to drive her to the library so she could do some research for a school project. While waiting for my daughter, I noticed that the library had a Grove's Musical Dictionary. On a whim I looked up the name Gerl and there was Franz Xaver Gerl. They had a full 4 page article on him stating that his father was a major contractor, building large monumental buildings in Germany and Austria. The Gerl's oldest son Franz Xaver was gifted with a beautiful singing voice and also showed some promise as a composer. The Gerl family knew Leopold Mozart and decided to send there son Franz Xaver, then 13, to Salzburg to study musical composition with Leopold. The year was 1775 and Wolfgang, then 19, had just returned home from touring Italy. Everything in my 1973 session zctually matched up!
After studying music with Leopold, the young Gerl subsequently took studies at Salzburg University and majored in Philosophy and Physics. Combining all of this article in Grove with my 1973 auditing session I began to get the idea that maybe I was Franz Xaver Gerl.
12 years later, in 1787, Gerl was a member of the Shikaneder Traveling Troupe, putting on popular operettas in Germany. Shikaneder had also met Mozart back in Austria around 1779 when his troupe past through there putting on some Shakespeare plays. Gerl, Shikaneder and Wolfgang all renewed acquaintances in 1787 as the Shikaneder Troupe took up residence in Vienna. At just about that time, Mozart's fortunes started to wane and he began to fall into debt. Shikaneder attempted to talk Mozart into working with his troupe on a permanent basis, putting on operettas for the middle class citizens rather than full on operas for the Nobility. By 1790 they got Mozart to collaborate with them on an operetta, "The Philosopher's Stone", and the next year, Shikaneder talked Mozart into writing the music for what came to be one of the greatest and most performed operas of all time, "The Magic Flute"
The Magic Flute was a hit from its very first performance. Had Mozart lived, he would have become wealthy just from writing the Magic Flute plus he had many other irons in the fire which were about to come to fruition for him. Alas, it was not to be, in November of 1791 Mozart took ill. He was only 35 so at first no one thought much of that but he started to decline and by December 5, he died. The last day of his life, Dec 4th, Gerl and another Singer Schacht came over to sing versus from Mozart's requiem mass with the dying Mozart. As they began singing the Lacrymosa, Mozart broke down crying, he said his last words to his beloved wife Constance and went into a coma. At 2 am on Dec 5th, he died. Gerl was 6 years younger, only 29 and he was with Mozart on the last day of Mozart's life. Not only that but Mozart's oldest Son Karl is also named Franz Xaver Mozart, and it is believed that Gerl was that child's Godfather.
That's about as close as I ever came to getting official proof via records, that i lived a past life. Really, the only significant data which counts is that in my session, I was studying with Leopold at their house when I was 13 and Wolfgang was there at that time and he was 19. Grove's dictionary states Gerl was there at age 13, studying with Leopold and Wolfgang, age 19, was also living there. At the time I did that session I was not familiar with Gerl's existence except that his name appeared once in a book I had read, saying that he was the first to sing the role of Sarastro. That is the closest thing I've ever had to proving a past life but it is not conclusive, far from it.
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And boy did the other half have emotions!!!!
