Before my reply to Rog, I just want to acknowledge Blip for what I consider a very fine post!
Rog, there is a first time for everythign. This is the first time I do not agree with an important part of one of your posts. It took me a lot of time to wade through MAB's last post but after all the evaluations and invalidations of me and trying to understand a very complex text, I finally did figure out what he was saying which is similar to your first paragraph above.
I still rejected his post and tend to view the issue as Veda views it in his post above. I made a personal statement about my own life by saying that I would like to cut all ties with Hubbard but I can not do so because of Hubbard's writings containing some elements, both in Tech and in Management, which many, including myself, find benifical. As a result of this, I can not jettison all of Hubbard's teachings and have to continually sort out what is good from what is evil. THAT IS ALL I'M SAYING! I stand by this statement. It is just the way I feel so it is true for me right at this time. I should not be evaluated for and be pedantically schooled or lectured into some other way of feeling. I am allowed to state how I feel without being criticized or attacked.
Rog, your post is very different from MAB's You present a piece of tech in your opening paragraph and then embellish that with two follow up statements. My reaction is positive, I am refreshed and renewed and review things in my mind to see if perhaps I am making a mistake. You are getting me to look. It is a positive experience. MAB's posts are not like that. They are very complex and make no mistake about it, there is an intent in them to not only evaluate for me, which he freely admits but also to invalidate me. When I read his critical posts I tend to spin out, have bad physical reactions, feel caved in, etc.
Perhaps he is just not as skilled as you in trying to get someone to look or perhaps he is doing something hinky. I do not know which it is at this point but am willing to give him the benefit of the doubt.
Just three days ago, I wrote of a major cognition which I had on the Disagreement Rundown in 1993. The cog was that I am not cut out to be the E.D. of a group but rather do best as a close confidant and technical advisor to the E.D. I related to the board that I first felt great about this cognition but then later began to think it was not the full E.P. which I needed to get because in a way I was a postuling that I did not have what it takes to be an E.D. and I did not want to do that.
Enters MAB and he states that I am dramatizing a Service Facsimile. I patiently explain to him how I feel about it and that I don't see any area of this cognition where I am trying to make myself right and make others wrong. Instead of just acking me, MAB states that it is definitely a Service Fac and by not owning up to it, I am dramatizing the service fac even stronger and what is more it shows PTSness and I don't necessarily have to be PTS to someone else but I may be PTS to one of my own "entities." He then recommends some processes and some sources I can read up on and perhaps handle my PTSness and Service Fac on my own.
NOW I ASK YOU, WHAT THE HECK IS MAB DOING? To me this is definitely hinky. He has never stated what his case state is or his training level is that I know of. Even if he is Class VIII, he would not have the right technically to pull this stunt and make this evaluation for me. Notice that he did not PM me but rather put this material out on our open Forum. His posts tend to discredit me before the members of this thread! If he was really trying to help me, he should have PM'ed.
FINALLY ROG, I WANT TO COMMENT ON THE LAST TWO SENTENCES OF YOUR POST.
It is your thoughts that trap you the most. I fully agree.
and it is by undoing now unapplicable thoughts that one gets free!
I also fully agree and believe I have been the "poster boy" to prove this point. I arrived on ESMB in February of last year, fully believing that LRH was a saint, that all the original LRH tech was valid and definitive and that all the ills of the C of S were caused by DM. I have jettisoned scores of unapplicable thoughts, all which have acted to free me. I have had enormous wins and blow downs along the away. My only disagreement with your post is that I still feel that at this point I still have some ties to Hubbard. This is how I feel. I may feel that way for unoptimum reasons and maybe need to dig deeper to find out why I feel that way, etc. but that is another topic for another day. Today I just feel that I still have some ties to Hubbard despite what MAB thinks about it and sad to say, even if you disagree with me.
Lakey
Lakey, I believe I understand what you are saying, and to me it seems perfectly natural and normal to be feeling as you do currently. I agree with you that I think it is a temporary state, that you have not reached the "ep" of this line of self-examination and learning about the greater world view of COS and it's belief systems. You are still making a transition from someone who not too long ago was a "true believer" in Ron and his works, to someone who is able to look at COS, it's and Ron's history from a different viewpoint, to get a clearer, more truthful and accurate look at it all.
It is to be expected that your viewpoints and feelings will change as you make the transition from "true believer" and loyal dues paying supporter to former Scientologist. This just seems natural and normal to me. Not "pts" at all.

I think you're doing great, and am so glad you did not drop this thread, look at the great discussion party it's grown into! A very large tent indeed!
May I say that I agree with you, that I also feel that I still have "ties" to Hubbard, me who probably had less to do with him and his works than anyone else posting on this thread...because he still haunts the lives of several people whom I care about a great deal. I cannot say anything truthfully "critical" about Ron to my friend still in, or he disconnects from me for a time. Like it or lump it, this self imposed restriction on where he may look and what he may think impinges on me as well, and damages our relationship.
I do question Lakey, are you are allowing yourself to go a little pts to your viewpoints of what MAB has posted about this? That is something that you can handle, and I see you doing so in your posted responses.
Rog has shared some thoughts to assist with this, which are useful to all of us in avoiding "traps", or freeing ourselves from same.
Nobody has the right to tell anybody else if you are making this transition in a "right" or "wrong" manner, there is no right or wrong about this journey. It is as individual as each former member's life experiences, authentic personality, hopes and dreams, etc. Each must follow their own path, and blaze their own trail to total freedom from Scientology and COS influence over their minds and their lives. I applaud you and others on your efforts to do so here and elsewhere, and the evidence of your collective and individual progress, which is GREAT!!!
My hope for this thread is that we can all do our best to support and encourage each other while each is finding their way with this journey...(and maybe play a little together and have some fun along the way, too.

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I want to make it clear that every single one of us (Ex or Non) is on a transitional journey of healing, each one of us has our own wounds and disappointments that must be tended to, that's just the process and progress of life...none of is is any higher or lower than another in this respect...one thing I truly HATE about the Scientologist mindset...
I'm not sure that MAB's intention was to attack or try to "make wrong", perhaps he was trying to help, and just worded things in a way that was less than helpful. That's easy enough for all of us to do, especially if we post in a hurry, without a lot of forethought for how our message may be received.
I won't try and evaluate his intention, as he can speak for himself, but what effects you is the way you felt about it, and your feelings are important. I have confidence in you that you are able to handle this in a way that will help further you forward in your personal journey.