A fascinating person to understand.....
I said to Hats, "You are a fascinating person to understand." She replied, "I don't even understand myself." I feel clean and quiet after reading her story and her final comment.
There has got to be some major piece of tech encapsulated in the above last words of our interchange.
A person who is totally "in valence" and is just being oneself would have no need to understand oneself, right? The old saw is "know thyself and the truth will set you free." It does not say, know thyself and thy will understand thyself.
Those who are being themselves would not necessarity understand themselves nor not understand themselves because they are just being. To get an understanding of oneself there has to be some doing involved. One might look, think or figure figure about oneself. Hats has not done much if any of those activities about herself but has concentrated on just being herself. That's why she is fascinating, we are looking at a truth here, a static.
Even when she fleshed out her life story, she painted with a very light brush, it was done artistically and with not much emotion or dramtic impact.
It is interesting as I have connected Hats up with a musician such as Mozart or an artest such as Monet. Mozart was always just being himself. His music does not have his beingness painted all over it. Beethoven was the exact opposite. Every great piece of music after his initial training, where he emulated Mozart and Haydn, is a strong statement of his own individuality and his own power as opposed to the power of "Providence" which was trying to control him. Beethoven would have nothing of the concept of being controlled, he asserted his mastership of his own fate through the sheer power of his music.
Mozart looked at music in a different way, he would never put his own personal statement of life into his music. His music was mainly designed to be beautiful and to stir up emotions through clever patterns of sound and harmony. Both "masters of sound waves" stir up emotions, but each does it in completely different ways. For a very long period up until perhaps 1950, Beethoven was considered the greater and more profound composer. Somewhere in our time, Mozart began to be taken more seriously
Mozart used a perfect carrier wave to get his musical ideas across, the melodies are very good and tasteful but they are usually not great, with a few exceptions. It is the fabric of the music where the genius lies. Those of us who enjoy it, never tire of lsitening to it and hear something new every time which we never noticed before. I do not get this with Beethoven at all. Bach also has a great carrier wave. Beethoven creates his emotion very differently and it all carries the imprint of his personality defying Providence, in my opinion. An excellent compromise between the two is Haydn where the elememts of Mozart and Beethoven are both present.
Some artists are just skilled in the art of living. Here lie your Vivien Leighs, Ingrid Bergmans, Grace Kellys and Marelene Dietrichs, Fred Astaire would be an excellent male representative, maybe Elvis would qualify. Here is where Hats lies, living life with style and flair. My God, just look at that portrait of her! What a space she is projecting. To me, my friends, being able to project a space such as hers is art, very fine art........Lakey
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There is privacy away from home. I am your normal gal. I married him because I knew he would not hit me. I grew up with lots of physical abuse. He desperately wanted to give up the gay lifestyle. Yes, he was the best thing that ever happened to me. He did end up leaving with someone who could ring his chimes but only after my brief interlude with the ED of our Scn mission where we were both on course.
