We're all so full of faults that finding them is easy.
I used to be filled with this violent rage that I used to go looking for fights so I could unleash that rage on some mother-fucking asshole who deserves to get fucked up.
And I was very skilled at unleashing that rage.
But, the rage never subsided.
It only grew.
Until I learned that I also was a mother-fucking asshole who deserved...
to be appreciated.
Appreciated for things held deep inside that I was terrified of feeling..
and showing to others...
least I seem weak.
Attacking an enemy's weakness is easy.
Turning an enemy into a friend is not so easy.
But, in the end, it is our ability to be a friend that makes us stronger, not our ability to be an enemy.
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One thing I've noticed about some anti-cultists is a severity of feeling. "Love-bombing" is bad. Love is therefore something that must be strictly monitored. Austerity of feeling becomes a means of self protection. Any proclamations of "love" or "appreciation" set alarms clamoring.
Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me.
But, there is no shame in loving or being loved, No shame in appreciating or being appreciated. No shame in valuing others or being valued.
The shame is in the lie, the deception, the manipulation.
When we cease to care for others, we deceive ourselves just as much.
It is in our nature to care, to love, to appreciate and value. Doing such gives our life meaning, makes us fuller, more complete.

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Veda has taken a bit of a pounding recently. Call it tough love if you like. So I think it's time to balance it out a bit.
I don't want to get into any politics on this thread except to say to Veda that you are loved & appreciated here (even when it might not seem that way to you). You have been (and hopefully will continue to be) a major source of important historical information to people leaving the CoS.
You helped me peel my own onion over the years & I thank you for it.
I hate Veda!
(Just kidding)
Don't worry folks.
We've just handled Panda.
The Anabaptist Jacques
Lowers, again!!!![]()

Veda
You are so brave and caring. A meal with you is number 2 on my bucket list.

"Some people, well, if they don't like Veda, well, then, fuck you." guano rises from the table. "Really." He points an angry finger at the imaginary enemy. "Fuck you." His face reddens. "Period."
(Almost always!)


You know this is true about you and your life!