Re: The highest OT level~~ Reality Check!
I'd just like to say that I love all you guys, no matter where you are on the "getting free from judging myself and others by from where I am the bridge" spectrum.
I think that the most "OT" you can get is to free yourself from any and all kinds of prior indoctrination (of all kinds), which many of you have done or are doing, so congrats on your OTness, everyone!
I know that a lot of people still have warm fuzzies for parts or aspects of the tech, aside from their bad experiences with the horror story that is the COS. I get it. I understand why some people feel this way, and it's o.k. It's not for me, but to each his own!

I also understand why some people want to have nothing to do with it anymore! This is also o.k.
Lesolee, I can think of many reasons why you might have wins by doing the process you describe. It's o.k. Solo auditing might be very soothing and calming for someone who got "relief" from auditing for years.
Doing any kind of repetitive discipline of sitting quietly alone and examining one's thoughts and feelings within some kind of context or structure might be helpful for most people with normal minds.
I'm sure that there are many, many other modalities which would also make you feel better, that you just haven't tried or been exposed to yet.

Please don't let yourself fall into the trap of thinking that Scientology is the only thing that will work for you. But if this is what you want to do for now, and it's working o.k. for you, fine. Feel free to do something else when and if the spirit moves you.
You're going with the comfort of the familiar, and I understand that. I'm glad you're getting some good out of it. As long as you recognize that your telepathic communication is with yourself, with aspects of your own mind, and not with other "beings" separate from yourself, you'll be o.k. I personally think you are playing with fire, but boys do enjoy that, I get it!
But please don't think that doing solo processing is the only tool in your toolbox for personal growth, healing or transformation. Don't limit yourself that way. No need to, really!
I hope you do not feel that I am invalidating you, as that is not my intention to do so. However, you may feel that I am evaluating for you, and that is all right. This is what we do for each other out in the real world. We hold up mirrors to each other all the time. We get and give feedback. This is an important way in which we learn and grow personally. Remember that I am not a Scientologist, and the ability to discern and make accurate evaluations of people, events and circumstances is a highly valued survival skill in the non-indoctrinated, non-Scientologist world. Once you get really good at doing this kind of discernment and evaluation, it's called "wisdom"!
