The CoS is continually abusing its own members, both staff and public, yet Scientologists are the last ones to become aware of and recognize it as abuse. Scientology is supposed to be about "knowing how to know", yet Scientologists are the last to know. I'm not picking on you tr8theta, most all of us, including myself, were guilty of this.
The CoS routinely utilized fraudulent marketing methods to both recruit staff and sell their "bridge" when I was in, and I imagine nothing has changed in that regard. That IS abusive, isn't it?
If a public scientologist is doing badly because his auditor messed up then he also gets charged for the "repair" as well. That's abusive, yet most of us don't recognize it as such when we're in, if ever. If we took our car in for routine maintenance and the shop owner charged us an extra $500.00 to repair the damage his tech did due to an error or incompetence, would we tolerate that?
Failure to recognize abuse as such seems to be a common human failing. Even amongst non-scientologists it's common for people to go for years in an emotionally abusive relationship without recognizing it as such.
But for Scientologists it's even worse. We paid hundreds of thousands of dollars (in money or slave labor) in an effort to increase our awareness, yet we were still blind.
Not feeling picked on at all...I feel "normal" so to speak for being one of the last to know as well as others. When you are part of a group you trust you are easily gullible and naive as to what is REALLY going on and worse even prey...until for some it's too damn late. My God was I flabbergasted to learn about all the suicides and murders of Scientologists. Were it not for ESMB and Leah and Mike and OWN and You Tube...I'd still be a naive dope. There is sooo much more I haven't even read or seen or heard yet...
but I've read,seen,heard enough and am now the wiser. Personally knowing some of the abused makes it more concrete (I knew the Reisdorf's on the Apollo)
I'll add some more of my "not so great" experiences and please know that by no means would I have the audacity to claim that mine were anywhere even close to the worst experiences of others but for whatever it's worth here they are...again I want to remove the notion from anyone's mind that I may have mistakenly created earlier that ALL my experiences were good.
1971 - 1975 I arrived at Apollo in Morocco - was immediately disappointed by the dark, cold, sleeping arrangements that some had in the lower decks. The men's dorm stunk. You've heard that there were roaches (the famous Roach Darby created by LRH to pay staff to find and destroy roach nests) I cried but was afraid to write to my parents anything negative. My first post was Mimeo Files Clerk under Sue Baker. She was very protective of me...I'll give her that.
This is when I was shown the famous Jacob's Mountain (Jacob Kemp) consisting of a hugh pile of returned mimeos (policy, bulletins, OODs (orders of the day) and much more. I got comm ev'ed along with the whole Mimeo Files department and was scared shitless but nothing happened to me because I was so new that they didnt find me guilty of anything. When I became Mimeo Files I/C I petitioned Ken Urghart (spelling?) to dump this mountain of issues overboard into the deep ocean. It was approved and we filled large black bags with all the accumulated issues and big rocks and down to Davey's locker they went. In retrospect there were many orgs with very skimpy mimeo files who would have loved to have many of these throwaways (the non-Flag only issues of course) but it was costly to ship to them.
There was a guy who worked in some kind of electricians capacity who went beserk and I found him shredding LRH's original handwritten HCOB's (which were kept in boxes atop the Mimeo Files) Don't know what made me think to do this but I went up to him and said "Good job...we now have another special mission for you so come with me (which he did) and I escorted him right to the MAA. This guy got locked up in a empty storage room with no port hole and metal door with a secure locking clamp. When they let him out I saw the inside of the room which the guy had CLAWED the walls like an animal. Don't know what became of him.
I witnessed a mutiny against Captain Norman Starkey by three guys but it got quashed by a group of very strong big guys led by a Stuart Moreau (spelling?)
Once LRH came storming onto the bridge during a heavy fog screaming "Where is this vessel" and "What are you (referring to everyone on watch) a bunch of pollywogs?" LRH held up a radio and twisted it left to right slowly until he picked up a radio station and he asked me (the lookout) to take a bearing on it (with the gyro compass) which I did and relayed it to LRH and he said "That's wrong! (so I felt like an idiot) Needless to say we found our way okay to our destination.
I saw Otto Roos get offloaded I believe it was for sexual misconduct (I may be wrong) or some kind of serious insubordination. Before this I saw him force his way into the canteen, shut the door and either raped or forced a girl to have sex with him - while people were still waiting in line to buy stuff. Many were very scared of Otto.
1973-1975 This is when I became one of the Apollo Star musicians. What you may not know is that several of the members "blew" to form a band off-shore with some musician they met at a gig we did...but they came back and were assigned to the RPF...but not for long. I think they were given an amnesty because their roles as part of the band for the value of the 'good PR" we created for the ship was too important at the time. Once we were invited onto a local radio show (perhaps it was in Curacao or some such island) and the radio announcer suddenly started accusing us and the ship of being CIA (which of course we denied)...but I wasn't expecting that nor was I properly trained on how to handle that stuff. I returned to the ship and was debriefed by someone (in the GO I think) and I cried having been so upset by it.
1975-1981 When the ship staff and contents moved to Clearwater thousands of both public and staff pc folders arrived in total disorder and mixed together. I created A-Z files for each category and sorted the entire mess out by myself. I was then assigned the post of Public PC Folders I/C. I was only a "Dianetic Clear' and yet whenever I had to send a public pc's folders back to their local org or mission I had to remove the FLAG ONLY auditing process HCOB's that were for OTlll's and higher (which as you know were confidential and off-limits to NON-OTlll's) but nobody would help me...and I was soooooo afraid I'd see something I wasn't supposed to see and freak out or go insane or something. Once I saw the word "cluster" and thought "Oh Shit" what does THAT mean? I hardly ever received any auditing and a few times I felt like blowing but I wrote a letter to the SNR C/S David Mayo asking for help...but I got nothing...so I did blow.
"We Come Back" is the motto so sure enough I was encouraged to return to Flag by the CMO with the promise of a program to help me (and others like me) but no such program took place. Jeff Walker got me assigned to be a page for the public pcs. This is where I met "Claudia" an auditor from Munich and we had a relationship on the sneak. I was always afraid it would come up in her auditing sessions...which I guess it did cause next thing I know it's off to the RPF for Tommy. Then as you know from a previous post I routed out amidst alot of turmoil.
but correct me if I am wrong...it appears to me that when you go to a thread it does not show you the page numbers to allow you to immediately go to the last page. I have to scroll all the way through ALL the posts to get to it. Am I missing something?
