I told you I was trouble
Suspended animation
I agree. I know that incredible control is put over people in the Sea Org, and there's always the threat of losing family and friends through disconnection, but if anyone tried to make me clean a floor or anything with my tongue....well....I would've kicked him in the head. Someone out at Int. needs to finally "man up" and just punch DM's fuckin' lights out! Geeeeez!
In principal I agree completely but when you are in the SO it's surreal, it's terrifying actually.
You're not in a position to do anything other than what you are being ordered to do, and it must be done right then and there without a moments 'comm lag' ... time and space to think is no longer yours and every moment is controlled apart from the few hours you have to sleep ... it's a truly suppressive environment even when you are not in a 'low condition'.
Having said that, I 'like to think' that I too would have refused to lick floors, but I recall that all of my energy was being used to try and stay relatively sane and to retain some kind of ownership of my true self.
Phew.


Thank you, Karen. 