KnightVision. Can't wait to hear more of YOUR story, too!
hi wizened one,
thanks for asking. i was involved for about 7 yrs. i exited as i couldn’t stand it anymore. things had been brewing from the beginning and finally i took back my life. the major points of discontent were/are- 1. double think: a. i got involved to better myself so that i could commune better with life and others- only to find myself hiding my scio thoughts from “wogs” with assumed arrogance that since i knew more than them, that i was better than them. b. it’s the worst of the worst to have withholds on a scio or the cos BUT totally acceptable to have them on wogs, ie my scio viewpoint of them. c. on the beginning of the (i think) student hat it says in effect not to believe anything one reads at face value, it should not automatically be believed even if a so called “authority” wrote it. BUT i soon find out- that only applies to “other” authors! well screw that i thought- that part was true for me so i’ll keep it. needless to say i was put through massive word clearing events as that unspoken war raged between me and every course supe thenceforth causing every sort of physiological reaction imaginable...
synop: a three way war rages- 1. me against me (this starts day one, ie i’m wrong, they’re right so now i’ll pay them to change me). 2. me against the wogs- i’m/were right and either i try to control them or i try to convince them to pay so i/we can change them. 3. me against the cos/scios- ie i refuse to flat out agree with everything i read as “the only workable... bs”. or thoughts like “get out my face- i’m not giving you 20k or whatever for some super-whatever-the f**k-power project that i don’t have any interest in”... or “get out of my face, now!- no i don’t want to join the CBorg- do i look crazy to you?” WOW... all this stuff causes insanity!
OK i’m on a roll- hopefully this is somewhat entertaining...
on lrh... clumsy, unattractive, vile voiced, arrogant dude who’s picture is everywhere and...AND everybody stands up and applauds him with “hip-hip hoo-f**king-ray at the drop of a dime. OH.....OH..... those moments were the ultimate is self degradation! YUCK
one last thing- the lingo! please louise... i don’t “get in comm” ... i talk to people. i don’t have sex with a 2d- thank u very much, i do it with my baby- my woman- my wild thang- et al. lrh had a compulsion for removing anything romantic from the human experience. my take? cause he was a wanna be great artist, the vast majority of them are very romantic. notice mind you how robo-tom uses his otherwise romantic wedding as a functional pr tool; and the more he is transformed into a function for the cultchurch the less romantic he becomes- this has not been lost on the ladies....
ok- i’ve spilled some blood. hope that helps to get to know me better.