I think I will continue here with my story. I promise you, I really write just about my life and what I saw personnally
Before I continue, I want to emphasize here one thing:
I was never accusing any staff and will never accuse anybody. Most part of staff are precious and very ethical people. They are believing in that what they are doing and want to give their best for mankind. Even staff realising the bugs within Scientology have often the urgent wish to salvage the situation. So they stay. I don't believe that each of them stays there, because he/she is blind (how I could here from different people).
I admire their force and courage. So I don't accuse here anybody, writing what I
saw and
experienced. I still have loved person on staff, not only out in the "wog"-world. And it hurts that now I have to ceep me aside and they too fear to have contact. (we are infected
).
I just want to show, that it was often remarkable for public, too, what happened!
My sister, not a Scientologist, left her body in this time period, when I was there in the org. My brother-in-law was totally despaired. He had lots of depts because the assurance didn't pay him the homecare for his wife, he had to take care for a daughter not yet adult. We helped him with filling his frigo regularly with food. As he had once the urgent wish to jump out of the window (he told this to me afterwards) he asked his doctor to give tranquilizers.
The Org was near of his appartement and one evening it occured that somebody bodyrouted him. He was filled up with valium then. This was no hindrance for the registrar to let him sign a contract for a few intensives and for the commcourse!
My brother-in-law phoned me the other day and asked me what to do. I couldn't understand, why he signed the contract and he said me, he didn't want to make difficulties for me, he heard there strange things about Scientology. I explained him, that this all are pure lies and went into the org to clear the facts. I claimed to cancel this contract, showing up that my brother-in-law was under drugs!
So far it's OK. But now I got an accuse, that I was hampering him to become happy, because for him auditing is the only way out of his grief. Nobody was interested in how to get the money for it and that he just could survive because we bought them food for about 300 franks each month and he had no chance to get credit having already debts of over 60'000 franks!
They knew that, my brother-in-law told them. (and don't pretend now dear loyalofficer88 that he didn't, you just checked that
)
There were several times attempts to get us sign a staff contract. The first one was just in our beginning times. I tell only this and another, which I found bitchy and perfidious.
The first was at this "gässli" in november or december 1974
My husband (there friend) and I were led in separate rooms and and mauled separately for almost an hour. I on my side had not too much difficulties to resist: I had a contract as teacher and couldn't just leave my post. To be able to leave it, it is necessary to writze an application form to the education departement of the city. When everything is OK, you will get the allowance for the end of schoolyear (april 1975). When the registrar saw he had noch chance, he took a really perfidious way. For a while he left the room and then came back, pretended that my friend had signed the contract and that I will loose him, when I resist.
I was shocked and sad, thought that all is at end now, I lost him. I couldn't sign the contract because of above!
When I left the room, my future husband was not yet out, I had to wait for 20 long minutes. I didn't understand this. What in hell are they doing. He already signed the contract. What is there still to do?
When he came out, he looked sadly at me, went away without saying one word. A ran after him, asked why he didn't speak to me. So he asked me very sadly, why I had signed the contract and that now we will be separated. I was amazed! What? He didn't sign anything? They were telling him the same lie!
The second once was, when I was in England for OTI, alone. My husband had to work, didn't get free. First there was an attempt to get me on staff at SH. Then I had a good talk with a very nice lady, I'm not sure, I think hername was Margret (the first director of Greenfields schools?). She showed me the school. It was quite nice, but there were different heavy outpoints regarding arrangement and material for school. But I think this was because they were just starting -- as I know it today. Well, she wanted to have me there as teacher. Now I had two of them:
The registrar in SH treated me to sign either a contract for SH or the school and MArgret did the same. They tried to convince me, that the kids in SH ar more worth to have a good teacher, because they are future Scientologists helping clear the world.
And they tried to persuade me to leave my husband and let me divorce because he is hindering me on my bridge!
Then, I thought, this is just a frailty of theese two staff members. If LRH would know this...
Meanwhile I know, that it is not at all the fact. But it is a common method, too, get more staff.
And this IS the truth, I experienced it personally. And that it is more than just a bug? I bought once all the red volumes and all the green volumes (HCOBs Policy Letters etc.) I read quite a lot ...
And don't tell me dear loyalofficer88 that I just had MUs
This are my observations, you have yours and have the right to them