Trust the Psi Corps.
I'm so used to everyone working the Scientology way that now I'm lost a lot of the time, it's like I don't really know how to be a regular person around regular people.
That's a toughie. I didn't know how to deal with "normal" people before I got tangled in $cn... Imagine the difficulty now!
The sexual aspects of your story are very disturbing, but I suspect not uncommon.
Welcome to the board, and don't be shy.