Some update:
I delivered a beautiful baby girl on 1 June 2010. She just turned one last week. We celebrated her birthday with close family.
I send pictures and invitations to my mother (who is still in the Sea Org), but never hear from her. She does know that I have a little girl and I think she has pics of her (I send her them).
My husband and I want to have another child soon. To do so, I have had to undergo several surgeries to repair damage caused by the terminated pregnancies from when I was in the SO. (They caused massive scarring and caused my daughter to be unable to be delivered, even by C Section - they had to cut her out, I lost a lot of blood, hypotension, etc, but we both pulled through. Took 6 minutes to deliver her, 3000 ml blood loss for me. She was not breathing and they had to revive her. Now she is happy and healthy and doing GREAT! Totally healthy).
My father visits regularly and gets pictures sent of me and my daughter. One of my cousins is about to get married and all of us will be going to the wedding. My family (both sides of family - mothers and fathers) are attending. Both sides of my family get along with each other quite well.
Scientology is not on my mind much, but I check in regularly to see what is going on. I lurk at least 3 times a week.
As I visit my daughter sleeping in her room, I pull the blanket over her and rub her arm. And it reminds me of when my mother did that for me. I miss that. Being a mom reminds me of the good things about my mom.